I discussed this with my friend and told her I wasn’t going because it might just be for sex. Meanwhile I gave the guy serious hope about us seeing.
I actually wanted to see him, but I wasn’t sure of the intention he had in mind. I don’t know how he got hold of the chat I had with my friend and I didn’t really say nice things about him in that chat. He showed it to me and I was shocked. My friend said it wasn’t her who sent it to him.
I tried defending myself but it was too late. I knew he was hurt badly, All he wanted was for me to just apologize but I didn’t want to, coz I was denying. He said so many unprintable things to me, funny enough I didn’t even take offense.
All this happened on the 28th of December. He told me he still loved me and he wanted to see me and it was never about sex. He wanted us to see if we could talk and get our relationship fixed. I felt terrible.
Yesterday I poured out a heartfelt apology to him, he never replied me.. In fact he even blocked me. I don’t want to give up right now. I know how much prayer I have put in for us to be together again.
It’s 6 months since that first quarrel and we haven’t even set eyes on each other. I know a lot of things I’ve stopped doing so that he knows I’ve really changed.
Right now I don’t know how else to convince him that I didn’t mean those things I typed. I’ve already told him I typed those things but I’m not proud of it.
I’m really really sorry I hurt him so bad. Every time I pray I always include him.. Us. I’ve been waiting for a long time to see him again. Communication was going on very fine before he saw that chat. He kept telling me that I was going to regret what I did and I don’t know if he truly means that
What else can I do coz I’m frustrated?